a night in the city, i had so much to drink i couldn’t remember all that much, i just spoke to my ex on the phone, she reminds of a moment on saturday night that i did not want to remember an made sure on that night that i wouldn’t by drinking that much. I can’t believe she brought it up an that it triggered everything i felt on saturday night.

She tells me to take a walk with her, she finds her friends little brother, then kisses him on the lips right infront of me…. i walk away.

Im not sure if you know how it feels when somebody you have loved for 4 years an always will love does that right infront of you an thinks nothing of it.

Its not that she is kissing another person, we broke up, of course it would happen. It’s the fact that i care is what i hate, and that how it was nothing for her to do right infront of me an then say oh im sorry i thought nothing of it. It broke my heart on the night and i drunk til i forgot.

We speak today an she mentions the same person, it triggered my memory of it from saturday an now i feel everything i felt at that moment.

It hurts.

So so so much.

SO hypocritical, always teasing me for kissing someone younger, he is 16 an she is 20 so f**k you for every time you teased me for something like this, every time you and your friends would put me down, call me names, say how gross it was, tell people about it and start rumours.

F**k.